The summer holidays have gone far too quick for my liking but they’ve been fun. Even though I’ve spent this evening (and many more before) annoying them by singing ‘I’m bored in the house’ on repeat, they love it really I’m sure! There’s never a dull moment in this crazy house but I wouldn’t change it for the world.❤x
Whilst standing in the kitchen,dealing with the seamingly neverending washing up,I looked out of the window into the garden. Nothing unusual about that, I do that several times a day but today there is a space, a big space infact because the trampoline has gone.
I’ve been looking forward to it going as nobody uses it anymore.
But seeing the space now reminded me of a conversation I had with my Dad, several years ago. We were discussing getting a bigger trampoline for the kids and he said ‘you’ll never have any garden for yourself at this rate with all of their stuff out here’, I laughed and said ‘ that’s fine,as long as I have the patio to sit on they can fill the rest, when they’re older I’ll have the space back’.
Fast forward and that day has arrived now I have my space back, how quick did that day come around and what I wouldn’t give just to go back and savour those times again.
Life feels like it’s simply flying by.
Another little nudge, another friendly reminder that time waits for no one and nothing lasts forever.
Its turning out to be one of those days,first of all I lost my watch,then my car and the way things are going,I think my sanity may well be next on the list! At least my nails are looking fabulous though thank you to my lovely children for the lovely birthday present.
No matter how much it hurts my heart knowing that you’re not here in person, I love being able to come and sit here and have a coffee with you. Such a beautiful spot you chose, thinking of you always.❤
Tonight after a lovely evening stroll with my boy, I came home uploaded some photographs and posted on my Dads facebook page.
I posted a picture of a boat that I know he would of loved to of seen, a picture that when I took it, for a split second I thought ‘I’ll send it to Dad’ then reality slapped me hard in the face, I can’t send him anything, I can’t call him,text him or hug him.
Being there by the sea makes me feel close to him but sometimes so very far away.
Grief is like an uninvited visitor that never goes away, sometimes it sits quietly in the corner and sometimes it makes its presence felt loudly.
Tonight its a loud presence~one of those days,one of those endless nights.
Somehow despite growing up in this somewhat crazy and usually unorganised house we call home~I have managed to raise children who hate being late, that’s all good obviously but I had to laugh at this conversation this morning.
Me~We will leave at 8.20am this morn
Ads~why we usually leave at 8.25 am
Me~oh ok 8.25am it is then.
Ads~I mean we could leave a bit later if you like?